Again with the margaritas!

So my wife took me out tonight to hang with a friend of ours. We ended up at a high class Mexican place. They have some amazing food… and margaritas specials…

I love you sooooo much

I ate to much again, I don’t think I ate a lot tonight, I think I was just still full from last night! We ended up sitting out on a patio drinking our drinks and one thing led to another and I found my self with a smoke in my hand. I am sad to say I enjoyed that cigarette greatly.

Me

But now that I am back home I have some serious guilt and now I am not sure if I am allowed to say I quit smoking 3 weeks ago or if I have to start counting again! So I added a pole to the right side bar over there... go ahead and vote and let me know.

As per our agreement here is your payment:

The best things in life... 

And for the ladies:

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Day 36

So today on lunch I grabbed some fast food and stopped at the gas station.
While this may not seam like much to you, for me it was a two or three time a week ritual I went though until recently... It used to be that I needed to run to the gas station to buy smokes, so I would stop on the way back from lunch. Today I just needed some soda, but standing in that line, I tell you what, it was all I could do not to ask for a pack...

No smoke for me!

But I did not falter; I survived that little battle and got back to my car with just the soda I went in for (and a pack of M&Ms). But man it totally rattled me all afternoon. I thought of smoking more today then I did even when I WAS smoking.

On top of that tonight is my first group fitness class at the gym. Apparently there will be hip hop music that I will be told how to dance to... this should end poorly for everyone involved.

Ya, kinda like this...

But it is what I have to do if I don't want to get fatter!

The good news is that I have seen some of the girls in the class...

She may or may not be in the class...

The best laid plans...

So i followed through on my plan to drink my self "Too drunk to drive" on Friday... and it worked like a charm until my neighbor came over to hang out and had some smokes on him. At that point my will power was just about zero so i had 3 smokes with him while we played corn hole into the night.

Throw a bag full of corn at a board with a hole in it...  You sick puppies

Day 21 and a half

Well, the dreaded after lunch and 2:30 cravings came and went...
Not that bad actually...
I have to coach my kids t-ball practice after work today so that will get me until 7, and we eat right when we get home so that’s almost 8pm tonight before I get the after meal craving again…
I am going to try and do something different tonight then I usually do in the evenings... 
I don’t know what yet…

Day 18

 I left my smokes at home today on purpose.....

Day 14.5

Seriously WTF... now i know why they call it a Habit...

So I had to run an errand on lunch, I go all morning with out a smoke. I run over to the car dealership to pick up a part. I meet a friend for lunch. I get back in my car to head back to work and half way down the road I realize I have lit a cigarette!
I was running a little late and was focused on what way I wanted to get back to the office to avoid any traffic slow downs and my mind just did what it has done for so many years and lit a smoke.. I was on my 2nd drag before I realized it and threw it out the window!!!

This is going to be a bigger pain then I thought….

Day 12

 Ok I spent almost all day Saturday at a bar, and came in 2^nd in a Cornhole tournament! We won our entire side of the bracket, then lost in the quarter finals, but we won out in the losers bracket so we got a chance to get the championship , but we lost in the finals to the same damn team… oh well there is always next year.

I did smoke a little more then I wanted to… But a lot less then I think I used to… total count 12 cigarettes in 1 Saturday with most of it spent at a bar!

Cornhole (bean bag toss, baggo or bags) is a lawn game in which players take turns throwing cornhole bags (cotton duck bags filled with feed corn) at a raised platform with a hole in the far end. These platforms are usually made with plywood or plastic and are often decorated. A corn bag in the hole scores 3 points, while one on the platform scores 1 point. Play continues until a player reaches the score of 21.

Monday starts the day where I am not SUPPOSED to smoke....

Day 11

Ok, I spent the last few days trying to work out a different schedule. 


The smokers at 10:30 still walk past but I don't go out with them. I am going to bring food to the office and see if eating here will help for a while. Today I made it all the way until my after lunch craving with out a significant urge to smoke. I even skipped the 2:30 smoke, and I am working through the 4:30 urge while I type this  ;) 1 smoke during the work day will be a huge step forward... 


I have noticed that when I do smoke it isn’t as… “good”… the first drag is still awesome, but that might be because it is getting longer and longer between smokes, but the end of a smoke is easier to put down and not want another one right away… I even caught my self crushing out a smoke with several drags left on it… a big deal when you know your quitting and will have to go a while before you light another one.


I am going out to the Tilted Kilt tonight for a friends birthday… lets see how I do. 

Yes, it is as awesome as it looks... 

Day 8

The list:
Drinking
10:30 AM when some fellow smokers walk by my office to take a smoke break
Noon when I am driving to lunch
1pm when I am driving back from lunch
2:30 -- I don't knows I just had a huge craving yesterday, lets see if I get it again today
4:30 when my day is coming to an end and I am just killing time till the office closes.
5 pm when I am driving home
After dinner... and I mean all night after dinner
I knew I did most of my smoking between 5pm and bed time but I didn't think I smoked quite this much!?

I drive my kids to school everyday so I bet that’s why I don’t have a morning craving for a smoke, and we do not smoke in the house so that must be why my car is such a trigger....

Now lets see if there are any easy ones to drop from the list.

Day 4

I can tell the medicine is starting to kick in.

One of the major side effects are “Vivid dreams” Most people I talked to described very dark and disturbing things… for me it seams to be more along the XXX type of vivid ;)  I would go into more detail about it but they don’t allow that kind of content here on Blogger  ;)